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03 August 2015

You bleed just to know you're alive.

Wohaaa what's with the title? Nothing, ignore it. I've come up with a resolution to write at least 400 words in this blog, daily. Well, duh. Daily is my maximum goal, but someone wise once said,
Shoot for the moon, even if you fail, you'll land among the stars.
It's true right? Well even if I can't post anything, my drafts folder is full of, well, drafts. Heheh. I can recycle them! Hmm. Smart move. Well, I used to be scared to even set any goals on anything. But I finally understand when they said Allah's blessings are everywhere. Innit? Hahah. You might lose something, but you will gain something else. Pengorbanan. He will provide you with something better. And it could be that you did not even lose something that you think you've lost. It might be that Allah is actually holding it back for you and He'll give it back to you when you're ready. Just put your trust in Him, everything will be better. Whoa, saying stuff like that sure is easier than done, eh? But hey, no harm will ever come from being positive and optimistic :) 

The uni had been kind these days. I can breathe, I started to be more comfortable with my surroundings, and I vow to manage my time better. I made some cool friends. But there's one condition. No more doing useless things. I know, New Zealand man! Have fun once in a while! But hey, I came here to study. And to change myself. To make my dad proud. And NZ or not, you still gotta do what you gotta do, mate. Don't be selfish! *I'm basically giving myself a pep talk here, heh.* You're gonna go back and you have to be among those who put action to the word "change". The country, the youth. And I've met a lot of inspirational people here, mostly my seniors. They are so committed to do things for the better, they are selfless, they are very organized. How to be like that meh? There's so many things to be done but there is always room for improvement no? Yes. 

And who says being serious and growing up is no fun? 


*pandang jari sendiri*

Okay, gua dah matang. Nak nangis jap mengenang jahiliah yang bertapa dalam diri selama ini.

Bye assalamualaikum, 
See you tomorrow insyaAllah.